{"id":300903,"date":"1978-01-01T00:00:19","date_gmt":"1977-12-31T23:00:19","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.vanoorschot.nl\/dbnl\/c-buddinghvier-gedichten\/"},"modified":"2021-06-04T14:17:50","modified_gmt":"2021-06-04T13:17:50","slug":"c-buddinghvier-gedichten","status":"publish","type":"dbnl","link":"https:\/\/www.vanoorschot.nl\/en\/dbnl\/c-buddinghvier-gedichten\/","title":{"rendered":"C. Buddingh’\r\nVier gedichten"},"content":{"rendered":"
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Vier gedichten<\/h3>\r\n\r\n
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Zo zwalkt<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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Nog steeds ben ‘k er op ‘t kantje af doorgerold.<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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Oorlog. Tb. Darmabces. Longontsteking.<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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Als ‘k maar tien jaar eerder geboren was<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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lag ik al lang onder de groene zoden.<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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Maar nee: penicilline, sulfa, PAS,<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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werden voor mij net op tijd uitgevonden.<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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Soms denk ik zelfs, dat er Iets moet bestaan,<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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dat wil dat ‘k tot op heden door blijf otteren.<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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Maar als ik mij afvragen ga waarom<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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ben ik onmiddellijk weer \u00e9\u00e9n brok scepsis:<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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nee, het moet allemaal louter toeval zijn.<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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Zo zwalkt de ene schildpad meer dan ‘n eeuw<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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door de oceanen rond, terwijl zijn broertje<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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al opgeslokt wordt tussen ei en zee.<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n
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Huiver<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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Soms mocht ik met de slagersjongen mee<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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voor op de fiets: ‘t was heerlijk, maar ook angstig:<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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hij reed zo hard en zijn mand klepperde zo:<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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‘k was als de dood dat we om zouden vallen.<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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Misschien dateert vanuit die dagen wel<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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mijn hoogtevrees. Of kwam die, toen ‘k bij Bikart<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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over ‘n soort brandweerladder wippen moest,<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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en hij er enkel vals bij stond te lachen?<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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Dat jongetje, op de Buitenwalevest,<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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zijn benen rustig bungelend boven ‘t water,<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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een hengel in zijn hand, ben ik dat echt?<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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Nu durf ik Theems- en Seinebruggen enkel<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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nog over als ‘k vlak bij de stoeprand blijf.<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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Het is de huiver van Vor dem Gesetz<\/i>.<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n
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Honger winter<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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Zo tegen twaalven ging ik met ons pannetje<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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naar ‘t badhuis toe, waar de gaarkeuken was.<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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Daar werden dan ‘n paar lepels van een drabbige<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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waterdunne substantie ingekwakt.<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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‘n Heel enkele keer dreef hier en daar een balletje,<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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of iets wat te herkennen viel als peen.<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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Het smaakte in de verte naar aardappel,<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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en was al ‘t warme eten dat je kreeg.<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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Op, ‘s avonds, soms, suikerbietkoekjes na,<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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die in de Mayo werden bruingeblakerd.<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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Ze golden als extraatje en lekkernij.<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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Dan praatte je, soms even na-kokhalzend,<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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over als de Engelsen kwamen en je dronk er<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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en kopje thee van lindebloesem bij.<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n
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Als po\u00ebzie = energie<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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Als po\u00ebzie = energie, dan heb ik<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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wel een enorme gasbel aangeboord.<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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Het werd ook tijd: het begon koud te worden<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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rondom mijn hart, gal, lever, enzovoort.<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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Een dichter die niet dicht, is als ‘n voetballer<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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die is gedoemd tot de reservebank.<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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‘t Hoeft heus niet altijd op papier te komen,<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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als ‘t in je hoofd maar lekker vonkt en vlamt.<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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Vroeger had ik het ook, dat panische:<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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al in drie weken niet \u00e9\u00e9n enkele regel.<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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Nu glimlach ik, sereen en soeverein.<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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Duizenden nuggets<\/i> liggen in mijn hoofd<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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te wachten om te worden opgedolven.<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n
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En wat dan nog, als ‘t af en toe koper blijkt?<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div>\r\n<\/div><\/div>
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